He was asking whys and whens.
The hours go by. Now becomes history in a blink and the space you occupy will be occupied by someone or something else in a few hours and a thousand years. Do you feel scared? I used to.
Anxiety was a constant in my life, particularly in my teens, twenties and first couple of years of my thirties. I look back at the wreckage caused by my incessant worrying and agonizing over strange and
trivial things. Even the concerns that were founded did not deserve the shit storm of fear and loathing I covered them with. To be burdened with that much fear is not allowing oneself to live in the now.
After a time you need to have trust and faith in yourself and the things that you do. Love is a turbulent venture. It can rip you to shreds, it can leave you stranded in bliss. It can make you rethink and
reassess everything that makes you, you. It can build you up. It can ruin you. If you let fear and anxiety have their way with it. Fear waits in the wings, it’s in your peripheral vision. It lingers in your heart and
sleeps in your mind. My advice? Get the mastery over it. Otherwise you are so going to miss out on everything. Back to love. One of the best things about it is the uncertainty. It is alive, dangerous and vital.
It challenges you to be better, to reinvent yourself and refine yourself. It takes your focus off of yourself and teaches you to give unselfishly, fearlessly no matter what the future holds.
When I’m in a good situation I no longer worry about what is coming five years down the road. I don’t worry about five hours or five minutes from where I am. A part of my brain, a primitive part, a childish
part screams and rants and worries and demands that I adhere to it’s cause. But to do so means that I have to die and become an automaton motivated by fear, loss, anger and pain. That is not the man I am
today, nor the man I want to ever be. Be in the now. Right now. In the now. Savor it. Savor everything, even if it aint so sweet because it will never be this way again and you can’t do it the same way twice.
Hold her hand. Hold his hand. Take that risk. Take the job. Do the thing. Say it. Say it. Say it and then DO IT!! DO IT!! Become what you must become. Do it with all your power and capabilities. You go around
once. Not later. NOW!
